I Timothy 6:7 says “For we brought nothing into the world and it is certain we can carry nothing out.”  

Life is like a maze.  We enter one way and there is only one way out.  The twists and turns are so vast and all the possibilities of actions along the way determine the success of it all.  One thing is for certain, no matter how many detours and dead ends we hit, we will all eventually come to the strategies of God.  

I am grieving.  

My mom was an incredible woman filled with so much love and charity.  She was the mom every kid wished they had because she was present.  

Present is defined as the period of time now occurring or in progress.  This was her.

She was there to always do all she could to make everyone around her feel comfortable and well fed.  

She truly loved like Jesus.  

Mark 6:37 says “But He answered and said to them “You give them something to eat.”” Jesus’ words to His disciples that day defined my mom.  

Feed them.  all of them. Isn’t that what Jesus did?  

John 6:48, Jesus tells us he is the bread of life.

Grief is a funny thing. I am left with empty spaces in my heart and mind.  Right now I have to be intentional not to allow anger, strife, resentment or doubt to settle in those places.  Right now I have to hold tight to the word of God.  

In my emptiness, He will fill me up.    

When the waves of pain come, my first defense is on my knees. 

I know if I cry out the name of Jesus, He hears me. 

I know that if I can lift my eyes up toward heaven, He will help. 

I know if I can sit at His feet, He will fill my emptiness.

Healing will take time and time belongs to God.

It cannot be manipulated.

It cannot be forced.  

It cannot be controlled because it is not ours to control.  

Time belongs to God.

What do I have control of?  My choices.  

I will choose to grieve with hope in mind.  (I Thessalonians 4:13)   

I will choose to cling to the promises of God.  

I will choose to rest in the assurance of the everlasting life secured by our Lord and savior Jesus christ.  

“Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also.” John 14:1-3

In my grief, I will choose to rejoice for the glory of the heavenlies she now calls home.